go ahead, but please don't go away

 i write this on my way to Pangandaran Beach to celebrate New Year :

30 December 2010,
i'm on my way to Pangandaran, last night i cant slept. im thinking about you, our relationship (our story).
thinking what you really want from me for sure, and what the best for us, for me exactly.

i can't cry anymore. i'm too tired for this..
i always to make you happy, do the best for you.
give the best that i can give for you.
do anything to make you smile, to make you feel comfort when you with me.

but i think you can't see what i ever done for you

hey you, i'm not that strong...my inside so broke.
when a girl silent it doesn't mean she don't have tears. it doesn't mean she can't crying at night before her slept.

and unfortunately i'm too craven to says this...