i've done it once, and i think twice is enough

last Saturday we met again, and you show the sweetest you since we ehmmm,,,,yeah.....blablabla...
just really like the past, you talk to me not like strangers, we can talk, making jokes and laugh..

unfortunately, maybe that the last time we meet,the last time we kisses, the last time we hugs.
i'm gonna miss your smell, your touches, your voice, you smile...


and now almost chinese new year..
i think it's time to me to move on from you again, i've done it once and i hope twice is enough..
new year, new me...and it's my Shio turn...Rabit Year..


ps :please don't come back in my life again if you gonna do the same thing.

random pitcure

books...

udah lama banget gue ga baca buku, pas kemaren nginep di rumah tantenya temen gue, gue terkagum-kagum sama kamer anaknya. banyak banget bukunya, wow,,,bukunya keren-keren, tentang non fiski, fiksi, novel, politik, agama, sampe ramalan feng shui pun ada...gue berfikir ni orang keren banget, klo diajak ngobrol pasti asik banget, karena dia past tau segalanya, dan mungkin bakal enak dijadiin temen ngobrol yang asik.
disitu rasa cinta buku gue bangkit lagi, kepikiran buku yang kemaren gue baca belum beres gue baca, dan udah gue tinggalin gitu aja, gara-gara kesibukan gue yang lain. pengen banget ngeluangin waktu buat baca buku lagi kaya dulu.
gue sekalinya ke toko buku bisa beli 2-3 buku sekaligus, karena gue tau gue bakal lama lagi ke toko bukunya, dan gue bakal lama banget baca buku itu, karena memang ga sempet.huhu...
so sad..
baca buku ahh...

go ahead, but please don't go away

 i write this on my way to Pangandaran Beach to celebrate New Year :

30 December 2010,
i'm on my way to Pangandaran, last night i cant slept. im thinking about you, our relationship (our story).
thinking what you really want from me for sure, and what the best for us, for me exactly.

i can't cry anymore. i'm too tired for this..
i always to make you happy, do the best for you.
give the best that i can give for you.
do anything to make you smile, to make you feel comfort when you with me.

but i think you can't see what i ever done for you

hey you, i'm not that strong...my inside so broke.
when a girl silent it doesn't mean she don't have tears. it doesn't mean she can't crying at night before her slept.

and unfortunately i'm too craven to says this...